1. My rendition of the whimsical idea of an octopus cowboy and his squid companion.

     
  2. Feb 17th, 2013    
  3. The Nature of Depression

         I know probably not a single person is wondering about this, but the main reason why I have such a problem keeping up with things like blogging is because of depression. I know that totally sounds like an excuse, but it’s a difficult thing to overcome, and even more so to explain to someone who has never experienced it before.

         Of course, when I say depression, I am not referring to feeling justifiable sadness because something is going on in your life that is bringing you down. I am talking about completely irrational feelings of worthlessness, apathy, pain, and helplessness. This is what I have dealt with on and off for most of my life. This is because, unfortunately, I am bipolar. Even when I am happy, I know that I’m only cresting the roller coaster and everything is just going to crash again. It’s a really jaded way of thinking, but I have ruined so many things in my life because of my cyclical moods.

         Depression is a beast that eats everything that you love until you can’t feel anymore, leaving nothing but emptiness. When you are bipolar, this beast is a goddamn tease. It pretends to leave so that you think that everything’s going to be okay, only for it to devour you again when you’ve fixed your life. I really wish that it wasn’t such an impediment to creativity. There is so much that I would love to do, but like everything else, it kills your motivation. I have wasted so much time, and I only truly realize this when I come out of one of my moods. It is such a pain in the ass.

         Here I am, 29 years old, in a dead end job with loads of debt, simply because I start things and don’t finish them. It’s that simple. The road to Hell really is paved with good intentions.

     
  4. Jan 26th, 2013    
  5. In other news, I did this for my niece. It’s for a memorial tattoo, designed to have words and a name written inside the globe.

    In other news, I did this for my niece. It’s for a memorial tattoo, designed to have words and a name written inside the globe.

     
  6. Jan 19th, 2013    
  7. Wow…

    I can’t believe how long it has been since I wrote anything on here…I am about as good at this as I am at doing journals! Well, at least it hasn’t been a year since I wrote something. So I guess I need to decide what I’m going to do with this here thing. I know what Imeantit for…but I don’t know if I am wise or insightful enough to actually do that.

    Let’s see if I can commit to writing something at least once a week.

     
  8. Jan 19th, 2013    
  9. I did this for my etsy shop. I’m kind of curious if its any good or not. Thoughts?

    I did this for my etsy shop. I’m kind of curious if its any good or not. Thoughts?

     
  10. Mar 23rd, 2012    
  11. So…

    I might start writing on my blog again. How cool is that?!!

    Not very, probably, cause I’m not that interesting…but well, I gotta do something with my spare time. <3

     
  12. Mar 22nd, 2012    
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  14. Aug 15th, 2011     revengeunwanted mail
  15. reblogged: bookofmirrors

    I find it facinating how atheists now become just as intolerant,uneducated,fundamentalistic and fanatic as Christians.

    marcelgomes:

    They spew hate, hijack science, rewrite history and use the same silly semantics.

    When they talk of “religion” they really describe Christianity (or at best Abrahamic religions).

    Nobody takes them more serious than they themselves do and everybody with even half an hour of study in Ontology and / or Epistemology knows that their belief is no more than that, a belief. Put some rituals and practices to it and you have yet another nontheistic religion.

     
  16. May 1st, 2011    
  17. Part 2 of 2.

     
  18. Mar 22nd, 2011    
  19. Part 1 of 2: The recording of a protest I attended on March 15th in Nashville, TN.

     
  20. Mar 22nd, 2011